What would I do without Ford? Besides the obvious (less laundry, more sleep), I would also live with a void in my heart and many life-lessons unlearned.
Ford is now crawling (mainly army crawling). I thought that this new found independence would free-up some of my time, but I am finding that he is even more reliant on me. We sit on the floor and play together. He goes from toy to toy; however, every 2 minutes, he crawls over and climbs up into my lap. I hug him and hold him, then put him down and start the process over again. If I dare get up and leave, he watches me leave the room and then cries.
Well today, I sat him in his bedroom with a variety of toys around. Instead of sitting on the floor with him, I decided to sit in the rocking chair and play Words-With-Friends on my iPhone (as any good mom would do). Initially, he played just fine. Then, as usual, about two minutes into playing, he looked up at me and started on his journey towards me (poor guy, that 5 feet probably seemed like a desert of space between us!). I was curious as to what he would do when he reached me, so I continued to sit and play on my phone (again, being a great mom ;)) He reached me, touched my feet, and just sat.
Then it hit me. God gave Ford the same desire for me that we are to have for our Heavenly Father (our Heavenly Parent). In every situation, in every step of life, our focus should be on Him. We should know where He is at in every situation. And if comfort is needed, simply crawl up to Him and sit at His feet.
Perhaps my longing for Ford to have more independence is just a sign of my own desire for too much independence from God. Is it a sign of weakness? No! It is a need, a yearning. And we all have it from the moment we are born. In Matthew, Jesus tells us that unless we become like Children, we will not enter the Kingdom of God! I so-often think it is my job to teach Ford everything there is to know. The irony is, God uses Ford to teach me everything there is to know in my heart.
Matthew 18:2-6
The Message (MSG)
"For an answer Jesus called over a child, whom he stood in the middle of the room, and said, "I'm telling you, once and for all, that unless you return to square one and start over like children, you're not even going to get a look at the kingdom, let alone get in. Whoever becomes simple and elemental again, like this child, will rank high in God's kingdom. What's more, when you receive the childlike on my account, it's the same as receiving me. "But if you give them a hard time, bullying or taking advantage of their simple trust, you'll soon wish you hadn't. You'd be better off dropped in the middle of the lake with a millstone around your neck. Doom to the world for giving these God-believing children a hard time! Hard times are inevitable, but you don't have to make it worse—and it's doomsday to you if you do."
Friday, July 29, 2011
Monday, July 18, 2011
Duane's Syndrome
We have noticed that Ford's right eye often crosses when he turns his head. For the first three months, this can be normal, but the pediatrician said that if it continues when he is six months old, we need to see a specialist. Well, six months came and Ford still crossed that poor little right eye. So, we made an appointment. We saw Dr. Sherman today (very friendly!), who is a pediatric eye specialist, and he dialated Ford's eyes. Almost immediately, he told us that Ford has Duane's Syndrome (aka DR syndrome or Duane's Retraction Syndrom). I will include two links to help explain, but from my basic understanding, what it means is that Ford's left eye has an inability to turn outward any further than looking straight on. Because of this, his right eye will often go inward too far to overcompensate. The cause for this condition is unknown. They do know that it happens during gestation, and the cause is either environmental or hereditary. Because the cranial nerves and ocular muscles are developed between the 3rd-8th week of pregnancy, that is when they believe the disturbance happens.
There is no simple solution or fix. Ford will just learn to cope. Instead of being able to "look" left, he will have to turn his head to see. Simple things will help him as he grows...requesting that he sit on the left side of a classroom, for example. And certain occupations are ruled out...surgeon, pilot, etc. Additionally, we need to get his hearing checked. Approximately 20% of people with DR syndrome also have hearing problems. (But, I think he hears fine.)
As a parent, I just do not want Ford to be made-fun-of. I realize that there will be times when his eye will cross, no matter how used to it he becomes, and kids can be cruel. But it could be worse...so we are thankful that God made it obvious enough to catch early, so we can get some other things checked out, and we can help him learn how to adjust to it.
Below are some links about DR Syndrome:
http://www.genome.gov/11508984
http://www.mrcophth.com/eyeclipartchua/duanesyndrome.html
There is no simple solution or fix. Ford will just learn to cope. Instead of being able to "look" left, he will have to turn his head to see. Simple things will help him as he grows...requesting that he sit on the left side of a classroom, for example. And certain occupations are ruled out...surgeon, pilot, etc. Additionally, we need to get his hearing checked. Approximately 20% of people with DR syndrome also have hearing problems. (But, I think he hears fine.)
As a parent, I just do not want Ford to be made-fun-of. I realize that there will be times when his eye will cross, no matter how used to it he becomes, and kids can be cruel. But it could be worse...so we are thankful that God made it obvious enough to catch early, so we can get some other things checked out, and we can help him learn how to adjust to it.
Below are some links about DR Syndrome:
http://www.genome.gov/11508984
http://www.mrcophth.com/eyeclipartchua/duanesyndrome.html
Thursday, June 16, 2011
The Best [0-6 months].
Looking back over the last 5+ months, I realize that some of the items we thought we "needed" were a complete waste, while others were/are a complete necessity for survival. Here is my personal list of "useful" baby products (so far).
Bouncy seat: We actually never registered for one, because I thought the swing would be sufficient. WRONG. Here's the best part of a bouncy seat...it's lightweight and can move from room-to-room. So, when you need a shower, but your baby won't be content more than 5 feet away from you....bouncy seat!!
Baby carrier/sling: I am so thankful that someone generously donated a Baby Bjorn to me. From the time Ford was 6 weeks old, we carried him around in that thing, because he hated (I mean, HATED) his stroller or carseat carrier. Later on, a friend introduced me to the Baby K'tan, and that too is amazing. I suggest both these carriers/slings. They helped me go grocery shopping, go on walks, and just be able to be at home while being hands-free.
Muslin wraps: These things are awesome. Thanks to my sister-in-law, Romina, for gifting us a package of them!!...they are wonderful for swaddling. The material is lightweight and stretchy. It makes swaddling a breeze! (Side note: I totally recommend swaddling a newborn. It makes them feel secure and comfy!) http://www.adenandanais.com/shop/swaddles.aspx
Food processor: I use my food processor on a regular basis for babyfood-making. It's a breeze! If you're interested in trying to make your own baby food, check out this website: http://wholesomebabyfood.momtastic.com/
Onesies with built-in mitts: When Ford was first born, he kept his hands near his face constantly. This meant that he was continually scratching his face up. Most of the mitts do not stay on (although SOME do), so the best solution for us was to keep him in long-sleeved onsies with built-in mitts. Brilliant.
Boppy pillow: My boppy pillow came in handy sooooo many times. Quick uses...nursing, holding at night, children holding, propping baby up, giving baby tummy time, helping baby sit up. Well worth the $30. We still use it daily.
Baby Einstein: Judge me not. Baby Einstein kept (kept?...heck, keeps!) me sane. It is simple enough not to overwhelm, but colorful enough to keep their attention. Who couldn't use 24 minutes to do the dishes, do the laundry, or check facebook? :)
Ju Ju Be Packabe: This diaper bag was a gift from Nate (and Ford) for Mother's Day. It is awesome. It converts from a messenger bag to a backpack. It is very generous with space, has insulated cup holders, a changing pad, and lots of pockets. It is so useful, I LOVE it.
That completes my list, so far. I thought that before time got away from me, I should get this all out. How quickly things change and how quickly I forget as we enter a new stage!
Bouncy seat: We actually never registered for one, because I thought the swing would be sufficient. WRONG. Here's the best part of a bouncy seat...it's lightweight and can move from room-to-room. So, when you need a shower, but your baby won't be content more than 5 feet away from you....bouncy seat!!
Baby carrier/sling: I am so thankful that someone generously donated a Baby Bjorn to me. From the time Ford was 6 weeks old, we carried him around in that thing, because he hated (I mean, HATED) his stroller or carseat carrier. Later on, a friend introduced me to the Baby K'tan, and that too is amazing. I suggest both these carriers/slings. They helped me go grocery shopping, go on walks, and just be able to be at home while being hands-free.
Muslin wraps: These things are awesome. Thanks to my sister-in-law, Romina, for gifting us a package of them!!...they are wonderful for swaddling. The material is lightweight and stretchy. It makes swaddling a breeze! (Side note: I totally recommend swaddling a newborn. It makes them feel secure and comfy!) http://www.adenandanais.com/shop/swaddles.aspx
Food processor: I use my food processor on a regular basis for babyfood-making. It's a breeze! If you're interested in trying to make your own baby food, check out this website: http://wholesomebabyfood.momtastic.com/
Onesies with built-in mitts: When Ford was first born, he kept his hands near his face constantly. This meant that he was continually scratching his face up. Most of the mitts do not stay on (although SOME do), so the best solution for us was to keep him in long-sleeved onsies with built-in mitts. Brilliant.
Boppy pillow: My boppy pillow came in handy sooooo many times. Quick uses...nursing, holding at night, children holding, propping baby up, giving baby tummy time, helping baby sit up. Well worth the $30. We still use it daily.
Baby Einstein: Judge me not. Baby Einstein kept (kept?...heck, keeps!) me sane. It is simple enough not to overwhelm, but colorful enough to keep their attention. Who couldn't use 24 minutes to do the dishes, do the laundry, or check facebook? :)
Ju Ju Be Packabe: This diaper bag was a gift from Nate (and Ford) for Mother's Day. It is awesome. It converts from a messenger bag to a backpack. It is very generous with space, has insulated cup holders, a changing pad, and lots of pockets. It is so useful, I LOVE it.
That completes my list, so far. I thought that before time got away from me, I should get this all out. How quickly things change and how quickly I forget as we enter a new stage!
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
The Pacifier
One unexpected perk of parenthood is that God often uses it to catch my attention.
On Sunday afternoon, on our way out to celebrate Easter dinner with family, Ford began crying hysterically in the backseat. This is not, by any means, an unusual situation; in fact, it is quite the norm for him. Defeated by the screaming, I decided to sit in the backseat with him and try to soothe him (yes, I am one of THOSE parents). I immediately picked up the pacifier, a tried and true method of calming him, and put it into his mouth. He instantly calmed, but after a few seconds, he grabbed the pacifier out of his mouth and began screaming again. He had such a tight grip on the pacifier, that it took both of my hands to gently pry it out of his (very strong) right hand. I finally got ahold of the pacifier, returned it to its home in his mouth, and he was...well, pacified. However, a few seconds later, we repeated the cycle...and so on...and so forth...until we reached our destination (a mere 15 minutes later).
Aren't we kind of like babies in our own lives? God is sitting in the car beside us, throughout our journeys, waiting for us to relinquish control over our wants/needs so He can use us for His glory. We spend our lives in hysterics, while hanging on ever-so tightly to our jobs, our families, our finances, our dreams; and all the while God is saying, "Let go. Let me show you what to do with this. Let me guide you to peace."
I am a bigger handful for God than Ford is for me, anyday! I am so thankful to have a loving Father who gently teaches me lessons because He loves me.
On Sunday afternoon, on our way out to celebrate Easter dinner with family, Ford began crying hysterically in the backseat. This is not, by any means, an unusual situation; in fact, it is quite the norm for him. Defeated by the screaming, I decided to sit in the backseat with him and try to soothe him (yes, I am one of THOSE parents). I immediately picked up the pacifier, a tried and true method of calming him, and put it into his mouth. He instantly calmed, but after a few seconds, he grabbed the pacifier out of his mouth and began screaming again. He had such a tight grip on the pacifier, that it took both of my hands to gently pry it out of his (very strong) right hand. I finally got ahold of the pacifier, returned it to its home in his mouth, and he was...well, pacified. However, a few seconds later, we repeated the cycle...and so on...and so forth...until we reached our destination (a mere 15 minutes later).
Aren't we kind of like babies in our own lives? God is sitting in the car beside us, throughout our journeys, waiting for us to relinquish control over our wants/needs so He can use us for His glory. We spend our lives in hysterics, while hanging on ever-so tightly to our jobs, our families, our finances, our dreams; and all the while God is saying, "Let go. Let me show you what to do with this. Let me guide you to peace."
I am a bigger handful for God than Ford is for me, anyday! I am so thankful to have a loving Father who gently teaches me lessons because He loves me.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Ford praises the Lord...
Some of you may have already caught this on Facebook, but if you didn't, check out Ford on Youtube, praising the Lord. :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f0qBCNjD0YU&feature=youtube_gdata_player
Monday, April 11, 2011
Ford's Dedication
Yesterday, April 10th, Ford was dedicated at church. We were asked to do two things in preparation: 1) write him a letter for him to read 18 years from now; 2) choose a Bible verse to read over his life.
Life scripture: Romans 12:1 (The Message)
"So here's what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life--your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life--and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for Him."
Life Letter: 18 years from now...
Dear Ford,
Mom and Dad love you SO much! As much as we love you, you have a Heavenly Father that loves you more than you can conceive. In every step of life, in both your successes and your failures, draw your strength and motivation through His love and grace. The Bible says, "For the mountains may move and hills disappear, but even then my faithful love for you will remain." (Isaiah 54:10)
The bottom line is this: If you can grasp even half of God's love for you, and love Him in return, then you will be pleasing to both us and your Heavenly Father. We love you.
Love,
Mom & Dad
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Month three.
Ford turned three months yesterday, April 6th. What a combination of joy and hardwork it has been! His personality was evident from the day of his birth and he continues to show a strong-willed, personable personality. He loves people, LOVES being held, and loves watching his daddy.
Some milestones:
~He rolls over from belly to back
~He smiles, babbles, and laughs often
~He sleeps 7-9 hours straight at night (only waking up once between 8:30pm-8:00am)
~He grabs at his toys
~He talks to the animals that appear (specifically the duck) on his Baby Einsteins video
~He loves all of his cousins because they keep him entertained
~He is still exclusively breastfeeding and seems to have established a solid eating routine
~He loves bath time (I think it is his favorite part of the day) and splashes around in the bath until the water gets cold (or mommy/daddy get tired of being splashed)
Some un-milestones (if you will):
~He HATES car rides and screams during the entire trip
~He only naps 1-2 times per day for about 20-30 minutes each time
~He, as his daddy says, is "high maintenance," which means he requires being entertained most of the day
We love Ford Edward so much. He lights up my life, as cheesy as that may sound. I am with him 99% of the time, and the 1% that I am away, I miss him. The breaks are nice, but when I see him again, I truly feel happy!
Friday, February 4, 2011
Much-needed update.
Well, most of you have heard the news by now. Ford Edward Wienert was born on January 6, 2011 at 7:56 in the morning. He weighed 6 pounds, 13 ounces and was 18.5 inches long. To put it simply: he was perfect.
Things did not go off without a hitch. Unfortunately, Nate and I were both unable to experience Ford's birth due to some complications with the epidural. The epidural did not properly take, so they put me under, and therefore would not allow Nate to come into the room. Nate first met Ford after his cord was cut, and he was cleaned up. I first met Ford in the recovery room, about 30 minutes after his birth. Nate and I are both dealing with some bitterness towards the birth experience, but we continually remind ourselves that God blessed us with a healthy (and handsome!) baby boy. I had to have a planned c-section because the day before Ford's birth, an ultrasound determined that he was NOT in position, like the doctor assumed, but that he was in a frank breech position (bottom down, legs & head up). This explained all of the back pain I had in the week leading up to his birth.
I am a bit thankful, however, that the morning of the c-section, I went into labor (on my own). So, I had the opportunity to experience real contractions for 3-4 hours before the c-section. I know it sounds silly to be thankful for PAIN (and a lot of pain), but I'm glad that God let me experience what it would have felt like to go through labor (at least a little bit).
Ford's birth was exactly 4 weeks and 1 day ago and I can honestly say that yesterday was the first day that I felt remotely back to "normal." (Whatever normal is now.) The c-section definitely took its toll on me. I lived in sweatpants for a total of 27 days, while the incision healed. Finally, I am able to put on a pair of jeans and button them! Hallelujah!!
Ford has been the easy part of the process. He is not the easiest baby in the world, but compared to the recovery process, he is not the part that made things difficult. He is a good baby. He is a bit fussy and gassy, but with help from gas drops and cutting back on dairy, things seem to be a little better. He sleeps amazingly at night, also! Lately, he has been giving Nate and myself 4-5 hours of uninterrupted sleep. He is a good kid. I thank God for him EVERY day.
Things did not go off without a hitch. Unfortunately, Nate and I were both unable to experience Ford's birth due to some complications with the epidural. The epidural did not properly take, so they put me under, and therefore would not allow Nate to come into the room. Nate first met Ford after his cord was cut, and he was cleaned up. I first met Ford in the recovery room, about 30 minutes after his birth. Nate and I are both dealing with some bitterness towards the birth experience, but we continually remind ourselves that God blessed us with a healthy (and handsome!) baby boy. I had to have a planned c-section because the day before Ford's birth, an ultrasound determined that he was NOT in position, like the doctor assumed, but that he was in a frank breech position (bottom down, legs & head up). This explained all of the back pain I had in the week leading up to his birth.
I am a bit thankful, however, that the morning of the c-section, I went into labor (on my own). So, I had the opportunity to experience real contractions for 3-4 hours before the c-section. I know it sounds silly to be thankful for PAIN (and a lot of pain), but I'm glad that God let me experience what it would have felt like to go through labor (at least a little bit).
Ford's birth was exactly 4 weeks and 1 day ago and I can honestly say that yesterday was the first day that I felt remotely back to "normal." (Whatever normal is now.) The c-section definitely took its toll on me. I lived in sweatpants for a total of 27 days, while the incision healed. Finally, I am able to put on a pair of jeans and button them! Hallelujah!!
Ford has been the easy part of the process. He is not the easiest baby in the world, but compared to the recovery process, he is not the part that made things difficult. He is a good baby. He is a bit fussy and gassy, but with help from gas drops and cutting back on dairy, things seem to be a little better. He sleeps amazingly at night, also! Lately, he has been giving Nate and myself 4-5 hours of uninterrupted sleep. He is a good kid. I thank God for him EVERY day.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Tomorrow is only a day away.
Today has been one of the craziest days of my life..and it's not over yet. At 8am, we found out via ultrasound that Ford is in the breech position. The ultrasound tech immediately suggested that a c-section was imminent. Our doctor confirmed our fears and suggested that we schedule a c-section immediately, before I went into labor. Nate and I were shocked to hear the news...it was the last thing on our mind. Suddenly, we went from wondering when our little boy would enter the world to having less than 24 hours before we KNEW he would enter the world.
I think we both went into panic mode. Nate rushed back to work to handle all of his last-minute responsibilities, and I rushed home to clean, mop, launder, organize, make notes, email/call family, make arrangements for the dogs, pack up bags, etc. I am sitting down right now for the first moment all day and letting it all sink in. Tomorrow morning, I will wake up at 3am and shower, get ready, and leave for the hospital by 4:30am. By 7:30am, I will be given drugs, numbed, and have an incision. Moments later, I will be staring at the face of my baby boy. Wheewww! I'm tired and it hasn't even happened yet!
I am disappointed that I will not be given the opportunity to have Ford naturally...but, I am thankful that God spared me a painful labor and a potential risk to Ford's life or my life.
So, the next time you hear from me, I will be a mother...Nate will be a father...and a new human-being will be in the world! I am overwhelmed with emotions of what is about to happen...God is so good!!!
Til' then...
I think we both went into panic mode. Nate rushed back to work to handle all of his last-minute responsibilities, and I rushed home to clean, mop, launder, organize, make notes, email/call family, make arrangements for the dogs, pack up bags, etc. I am sitting down right now for the first moment all day and letting it all sink in. Tomorrow morning, I will wake up at 3am and shower, get ready, and leave for the hospital by 4:30am. By 7:30am, I will be given drugs, numbed, and have an incision. Moments later, I will be staring at the face of my baby boy. Wheewww! I'm tired and it hasn't even happened yet!
I am disappointed that I will not be given the opportunity to have Ford naturally...but, I am thankful that God spared me a painful labor and a potential risk to Ford's life or my life.
So, the next time you hear from me, I will be a mother...Nate will be a father...and a new human-being will be in the world! I am overwhelmed with emotions of what is about to happen...God is so good!!!
Til' then...
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Homestretch.
Well, here we are...less than 5 weeks to go until Ford's due date (4 weeks & 5 days, but who is keeping track???). I have had an incredibly easy pregnancy, compared to some of the stories I hear from other women, so I feel very blessed. But these last few weeks have been quite tough. Ford is a rather healthy boy (ok, he's big!), and just simply carrying him around takes so much energy!...not to mention, I cannot even bend over without getting sick/getting a stomach ache. So, shoes are out of the question.
At my last doctor appointment, they suggested packing my hospital bag and finishing his room, in case he comes earlier than his January 9th due date. So today, I plan on packing that bag, and putting the finishing touches on his room (which is almost finished thanks to Nate hanging all of his pictures over the weekend). It is feeling so "real" to Nate and me that we will soon be parents of a newborn! I do not think I can do anything to really prepare, but I am definitely praying FREQUENTLY for peace, patience, love, joy, etc. for the first few weeks after his birth.
The doctor is also concerned that I may have gestational diabetes (due to Ford's size), so tomorrow I have to re-take the glucose tolerance test (which all pregnant women just LOVE). I am praying that I pass it -- and that Ford is just simply big, which I truly believe is the case.
Other than baby and Christmas preparations, life is quiet for us, which is glorious. Nate's job is really falling into place and he really enjoys it. And I feel thankful to be able to spend these last few weeks at home, just preparing and resting-up for Ford.
In case I do not follow up before, I hope everyone has an amazing Christmas and remembers that the reason we celebrate is because we have a God who loved us enough to send His Son. It can be so easy to forget in the chaos of the holidays.
Merry Christmas!
At my last doctor appointment, they suggested packing my hospital bag and finishing his room, in case he comes earlier than his January 9th due date. So today, I plan on packing that bag, and putting the finishing touches on his room (which is almost finished thanks to Nate hanging all of his pictures over the weekend). It is feeling so "real" to Nate and me that we will soon be parents of a newborn! I do not think I can do anything to really prepare, but I am definitely praying FREQUENTLY for peace, patience, love, joy, etc. for the first few weeks after his birth.
The doctor is also concerned that I may have gestational diabetes (due to Ford's size), so tomorrow I have to re-take the glucose tolerance test (which all pregnant women just LOVE). I am praying that I pass it -- and that Ford is just simply big, which I truly believe is the case.
Other than baby and Christmas preparations, life is quiet for us, which is glorious. Nate's job is really falling into place and he really enjoys it. And I feel thankful to be able to spend these last few weeks at home, just preparing and resting-up for Ford.
In case I do not follow up before, I hope everyone has an amazing Christmas and remembers that the reason we celebrate is because we have a God who loved us enough to send His Son. It can be so easy to forget in the chaos of the holidays.
Merry Christmas!
Friday, October 1, 2010
14 weeks and 2 days...
...left to go! That seems like nothing when you figure pregnancy is 40 weeks total (if you're lucky).
Just a quick update...
Nate:
Nate is doing well! His new (well, not-so-new anymore) job keeps him busy. He does a good job of balancing the stress of his job with maintaining a good home life. (Hear that honey, I really do think you do a good job.) He also enjoys playing on the men's softball team with our church once a week (and I enjoy watching him). He is an amazing husband and I cannot wait to see him become a father!
Ford:
Ford is growing quite big these days. He is pushing 2lbs now...but sometimes with all of his movement, I am convinced he is much larger. I am starting to get to know him better. It is incredible that a woman can say that about her unborn child, but it is true. I know what stirs him, when he's likely to be awake & moving, and just recently I'm starting to feel body parts (mainly just a head or bottom). We have a 3D/4D ultrasound on October 14th, which is exciting! These ultrasounds are incredible because they show so much more detail than 2D ultrasounds. I cannot wait to see his little features!
Me:
I am wonderful! I am trying my hardest to remain active during my pregnancy. This mainly just includes walking 2-3 miles most days of the week, but hey, I do what I can. I really see a different in aches & pains from weeks when I keep up with walking and when I get lazy. It certainly helps with the back pain (helps, not cures). Other than that, I stay busy preparing for Ford and trying to create an organized and calm atmosphere for him to enter into. My big project is Ford's room...painting, organizing, etc. It's hard work but someone has to do it (please catch my sarcasm). I am just feeling VERY blessed to begin living my lifelong dream of being a stay-at-home wife & mother. And it does not hurt having an INCREDIBLE husband!!
That's all from the Wienerts!!
Just a quick update...
Nate:
Nate is doing well! His new (well, not-so-new anymore) job keeps him busy. He does a good job of balancing the stress of his job with maintaining a good home life. (Hear that honey, I really do think you do a good job.) He also enjoys playing on the men's softball team with our church once a week (and I enjoy watching him). He is an amazing husband and I cannot wait to see him become a father!
Ford:
Ford is growing quite big these days. He is pushing 2lbs now...but sometimes with all of his movement, I am convinced he is much larger. I am starting to get to know him better. It is incredible that a woman can say that about her unborn child, but it is true. I know what stirs him, when he's likely to be awake & moving, and just recently I'm starting to feel body parts (mainly just a head or bottom). We have a 3D/4D ultrasound on October 14th, which is exciting! These ultrasounds are incredible because they show so much more detail than 2D ultrasounds. I cannot wait to see his little features!
Me:
I am wonderful! I am trying my hardest to remain active during my pregnancy. This mainly just includes walking 2-3 miles most days of the week, but hey, I do what I can. I really see a different in aches & pains from weeks when I keep up with walking and when I get lazy. It certainly helps with the back pain (helps, not cures). Other than that, I stay busy preparing for Ford and trying to create an organized and calm atmosphere for him to enter into. My big project is Ford's room...painting, organizing, etc. It's hard work but someone has to do it (please catch my sarcasm). I am just feeling VERY blessed to begin living my lifelong dream of being a stay-at-home wife & mother. And it does not hurt having an INCREDIBLE husband!!
That's all from the Wienerts!!
Friday, August 20, 2010
What's in a name?
For those of you who did not catch the news on facebook, Nathaniel and I found out yesterday that we are expecting a baby boy in January! It came as an utter shock to us, but we are overwhelmed with joy.
We decided some time ago that we would name our first born son Ford Edward. Ford is a name that I found on a list of "Popular 1800s names." I wanted something classic yet unique and masculine. Nate agreed that he loved the name. Well, during our trying to conceive journey, Nate and I were browsing in an antique shop (in November 2009). On top of a pile of old advertisements/ads, was a 1950s ad for Ford with a headline that read, "A Ford is in your future!" Nate and I bought it as a leap of faith and considered it a promise from God.
Well, yesterday, when we heard the news that it was a boy, we also felt a sense of peace and excitement that God sometimes gives us miracles and signs that are much more obvious than we deserve. Isn't He great?! A Ford IS in our future!! And let's be honest, our son will probably be the only kid born with his own slogan ("Built Ford tough"). :)
Edward also seemed like a natural choice for a middle name. Nate's middle name is Edward and my maiden name was Edwards. It kind of killed two birds with one stone. In addition, Nate's initials spell NEW and Ford's initials will spell FEW. Small detail, but still. :)
So, for those of you wondering, "Why Ford Edward?" There is your answer!
We are soooooo excited. We cannot wait to meet Ford face-to-face and to share him with all of our friends & family!!
We decided some time ago that we would name our first born son Ford Edward. Ford is a name that I found on a list of "Popular 1800s names." I wanted something classic yet unique and masculine. Nate agreed that he loved the name. Well, during our trying to conceive journey, Nate and I were browsing in an antique shop (in November 2009). On top of a pile of old advertisements/ads, was a 1950s ad for Ford with a headline that read, "A Ford is in your future!" Nate and I bought it as a leap of faith and considered it a promise from God.
Well, yesterday, when we heard the news that it was a boy, we also felt a sense of peace and excitement that God sometimes gives us miracles and signs that are much more obvious than we deserve. Isn't He great?! A Ford IS in our future!! And let's be honest, our son will probably be the only kid born with his own slogan ("Built Ford tough"). :)
Edward also seemed like a natural choice for a middle name. Nate's middle name is Edward and my maiden name was Edwards. It kind of killed two birds with one stone. In addition, Nate's initials spell NEW and Ford's initials will spell FEW. Small detail, but still. :)
So, for those of you wondering, "Why Ford Edward?" There is your answer!
We are soooooo excited. We cannot wait to meet Ford face-to-face and to share him with all of our friends & family!!
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Baby Wienert update.
Well, I am 18.5 weeks today. Time is actually flying. I know they say that the time goes by quickly for everyone except the one who is pregnant...but when I look back and realize that I am almost half-way finished with this pregnancy, I realize that things are moving rapidly now.
Except for last night, when instead of thinking, "Wow, I'm half way through," my attitude was more, "I am not even half-way through???" It really just depends on the day and time. Some times I feel wonderfully and look down at my belly and think, "Wow...life exists inside of me!" Other times, I'm too tired to walk, my back hurts, my stomach hurts, and I think, "Ok...21 more weeks...I can do this..."
But...all I know is...it will all be worth it. I have nightly dreams about our child and I wake up already in love with her/him. How is it possible to love someone that you've never met? Six months ago, if someone asked, "Do you believe you can love someone that you don't yet know?" I would say "Of course not." Today, my answer would be "Absolutely!"
And I can't help but correlating my love for this unborn child to God's love for us. The same miracle that goes on inside a mother's heart happens with God...except His love is even more perfect and even more magnified! If nothing else, pregnancy has helped me realize His love for me. I can only imagine that feeling will get stronger when I actually meet our child and see his/her face.
Well, in 8 days, Nate and I will know the gender of our baby! I really could care less if it is a boy or a girl, as long as he or she is healthy! It will just be nice to know so we can finally start preparing a nursery, shopping, and planning!
Until then...
Except for last night, when instead of thinking, "Wow, I'm half way through," my attitude was more, "I am not even half-way through???" It really just depends on the day and time. Some times I feel wonderfully and look down at my belly and think, "Wow...life exists inside of me!" Other times, I'm too tired to walk, my back hurts, my stomach hurts, and I think, "Ok...21 more weeks...I can do this..."
But...all I know is...it will all be worth it. I have nightly dreams about our child and I wake up already in love with her/him. How is it possible to love someone that you've never met? Six months ago, if someone asked, "Do you believe you can love someone that you don't yet know?" I would say "Of course not." Today, my answer would be "Absolutely!"
And I can't help but correlating my love for this unborn child to God's love for us. The same miracle that goes on inside a mother's heart happens with God...except His love is even more perfect and even more magnified! If nothing else, pregnancy has helped me realize His love for me. I can only imagine that feeling will get stronger when I actually meet our child and see his/her face.
Well, in 8 days, Nate and I will know the gender of our baby! I really could care less if it is a boy or a girl, as long as he or she is healthy! It will just be nice to know so we can finally start preparing a nursery, shopping, and planning!
Until then...
Saturday, July 3, 2010
13.
Well, here I am at 13 weeks. I used to think 13 weeks seemed so far away (especially since we found out we were pregnant BEFORE 4 weeks), but now I realize that it really does go by quicker than you think it will.
Some milestones:
-Things have gotten much better in the last few weeks. I keep the majority of my food down (yay!), except for the random, inexplicable, and completely unnecessary food-rejection that my body does.
-I am back to taking my allergy pill. According to all of my doctors, claritin is A-OK to take during pregnancy. As much as I'd prefer not to take ANYTHING, I just could not handle it anymore. I'm clearly allergic to pet dander, so having two dogs was not working out well for me and baby.
-I finally look pregnant to me, although most probably just think I'm a little chunkier than normal (I'll post a pic below).
-This week, baby can make sounds, suck his/her thumb, and when my belly is poked, he/she will respond by squinting or moving. The movement is what really excites me. For the first time, I feel like the pregnancy is interactive. Although I cannot feel baby move yet, it's nice knowing that when I poke my belly, it responds.
-Nate and I think we've chosen a boy name and a girl name. We like both. It is very exciting!! But for now, we're keeping them on the down low. ;)
My next OB appointment is July 15th, but it will not include an ultrasound (much to my dismay). We will hear the heartbeat, and just do a general check-up. Four weeks from that (August 12th), we should find out the gender at my 18.5 week (almost 19 week) appointment. It seems like an eternity away!!!
Until then...
(13 weeks pregnant)
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Boy or Girl Poll
I added a fun little feature to my blog. It is a poll that asks what you think the baby will be...boy or girl? Please humor me and vote with your best prediction!
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Update:
Pregnancy is going well thus far. As difficult as it is, at times, I REALLY enjoy being pregnant!! I am just over 8 weeks and swear I already have a little belly starting. They tell me that it usually doesn't start until 11-12 weeks, but my body just must be different than most.
The most challenging aspect of pregnancy is that I can no longer take my allergy pill. I suffer from horrible allergies, so most of my days are spent sneezing, itching my eyes, and blowing my nose. Fun stuff! Other than that, morning sickness hits randomly (usually at night). But I definitely cannot complain! I'm happier than ever!
Thursday, June 3rd, marks my last day of work at The Ounce of Prevention Fund of FL. I will be watching my nephew and niece (Hunter and Grace) for the summer...and then I will be fulfilling my life-long dream of being a stay-at-home mom/wife. I'm so blessed to have a husband who provides for me and encourages me to do so!! He's the BEST!
That's all from the Wienerts for now. Happy first day of hurricane season (June 1st)!
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Update:
Pregnancy is going well thus far. As difficult as it is, at times, I REALLY enjoy being pregnant!! I am just over 8 weeks and swear I already have a little belly starting. They tell me that it usually doesn't start until 11-12 weeks, but my body just must be different than most.
The most challenging aspect of pregnancy is that I can no longer take my allergy pill. I suffer from horrible allergies, so most of my days are spent sneezing, itching my eyes, and blowing my nose. Fun stuff! Other than that, morning sickness hits randomly (usually at night). But I definitely cannot complain! I'm happier than ever!
Thursday, June 3rd, marks my last day of work at The Ounce of Prevention Fund of FL. I will be watching my nephew and niece (Hunter and Grace) for the summer...and then I will be fulfilling my life-long dream of being a stay-at-home mom/wife. I'm so blessed to have a husband who provides for me and encourages me to do so!! He's the BEST!
That's all from the Wienerts for now. Happy first day of hurricane season (June 1st)!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Ultrasound1
We had our first ultrasound yesterday. It was very bittersweet. Let me start with the positives: we saw our baby, we saw the heartbeat, and the heartbeat is VERY strong! Seeing the "flicker" of the heartbeat was the proudest moment of my life. I kept thinking, "Beat on, heart, beat on!" I am already a proud mama.
The bitter part is that there were two babies, but one baby did not make it (very, very early on in the pregnancy). In addition, the placenta to our healthy baby is starting to separate slightly. This is problematic because the placenta carries the nutrients to the baby for the baby to survive.
The doctor suggested that I immediately stop taking my allergy pills, and rest as much as possible (not bed rest, just general rest). He said no exercise, no lifting, no pulling, bending, and take an elevator instead of stairs when possible. He said that often the placenta will re-attach, and that is what we are praying for!
So, I see another doctor tomorrow (a local high-risk specialist OB/GYN) that will hopefully give us more insight into this issue.
But we are excited about our baby bean...excited to see a strong heartbeat, and counting our blessings that we are parents for the first time. :)
I will keep this blog updated...and I will hopefully add ultrasound pictures, once I get them scanned.
Thanks for the prayers! We have the GREATEST friends and family!!!!
The bitter part is that there were two babies, but one baby did not make it (very, very early on in the pregnancy). In addition, the placenta to our healthy baby is starting to separate slightly. This is problematic because the placenta carries the nutrients to the baby for the baby to survive.
The doctor suggested that I immediately stop taking my allergy pills, and rest as much as possible (not bed rest, just general rest). He said no exercise, no lifting, no pulling, bending, and take an elevator instead of stairs when possible. He said that often the placenta will re-attach, and that is what we are praying for!
So, I see another doctor tomorrow (a local high-risk specialist OB/GYN) that will hopefully give us more insight into this issue.
But we are excited about our baby bean...excited to see a strong heartbeat, and counting our blessings that we are parents for the first time. :)
I will keep this blog updated...and I will hopefully add ultrasound pictures, once I get them scanned.
Thanks for the prayers! We have the GREATEST friends and family!!!!
Friday, May 7, 2010
Trust.
I always thought that surviving infertility took the most trust in God that I would ever need. And it does take a lot...but let me tell you what else I've discovered takes mega trust in God: being less than 5 weeks pregnant, not necessarily "feeling" pregnant, and hearing tons of horror stories about miscarriage.
On a daily basis, I: #1) praise God for this amazzzzzzzing gift, #2) pray a prayer of protection over "baby bean" (or "speckle"), and #3) pray for faith in His will. I truly, truly believe that God did not give "baby bean" to us as a tease...that this is truly a gift. An 11th hour gift from Him. And what an amazing gift it is!! However, the doubts continue to seap in.
But five pregnancy tests and two blood tests later...I am still pregnant with this miraculous creation! God is soooooo good!!!
By the way, I had a second round of blood work done on Monday. It showed that my HCG levels increased from 144 (on Friday) to 597 (on Monday). Which is awesome and definitely good news!!
The ultrasound is in less than two weeks and it cannot come soon enough.
Until then...
On a daily basis, I: #1) praise God for this amazzzzzzzing gift, #2) pray a prayer of protection over "baby bean" (or "speckle"), and #3) pray for faith in His will. I truly, truly believe that God did not give "baby bean" to us as a tease...that this is truly a gift. An 11th hour gift from Him. And what an amazing gift it is!! However, the doubts continue to seap in.
But five pregnancy tests and two blood tests later...I am still pregnant with this miraculous creation! God is soooooo good!!!
By the way, I had a second round of blood work done on Monday. It showed that my HCG levels increased from 144 (on Friday) to 597 (on Monday). Which is awesome and definitely good news!!
The ultrasound is in less than two weeks and it cannot come soon enough.
Until then...
Friday, April 30, 2010
My God is mighty to save.
First of all, let me just say that we have an incredible God. Above all else, I just want everyone to know how amazing He is! Let me also tell you a little trait that I learned about Him...He is an 11th hour God! And thinking back on popular Bible stories, it's true that He was the same then as He is now. He may not spare us pain and hardship all the time, but He certainly comes in and saves us!!! I cannot stop singing the song, "My God is mighty to save" by Hillsong. It's so true.
So you might be wondering what I am talking about...well...I AM PREGNANT! Nate and I found out by taking a test last night (and another test...and another test...) and then we confirmed it with a blood test today! My numbers look great -- and I am officially pregnant!
What floors me is this...this was our last month of fertility treatments. Next step was adoption. And yesterday...my goal was to talk to the adoption agency and lay out all of our plans for adoption. Well, the phone calls were inexplicably staticy and I couldn't hear a word the adoption agency was saying...it was frustrating...but I was reminded by God, in that moment, that even if adoption is not working out, that we prayed for HIS WILL to be done, and it WILL be done.
So, I finished the afternoon with ZERO accomplished in the adoption planning...and just gave it up to God. And then...what do you know...took a test and it was positive! God is amazing. Have I already said that?!?! :)
Without this journey...we would not know that we really desire to adopt. Just because we are having a child of our own, that desire is still deep within us. We still plan on adopting in the future -- and that is not something we would have known without the process of infertility.
So...right now...we are praying for a safe and healthy pregnancy and baby. I already find myself praying for the baby -- that God keeps him/her safe. And I really don't doubt that He will. The next blood test is on Monday -- and it will further confirm that my levels are rising, as they should.
But so far so good!!!!! :)
Thanks everyone for the prayers!!!!! I really, really mean it!
So you might be wondering what I am talking about...well...I AM PREGNANT! Nate and I found out by taking a test last night (and another test...and another test...) and then we confirmed it with a blood test today! My numbers look great -- and I am officially pregnant!
What floors me is this...this was our last month of fertility treatments. Next step was adoption. And yesterday...my goal was to talk to the adoption agency and lay out all of our plans for adoption. Well, the phone calls were inexplicably staticy and I couldn't hear a word the adoption agency was saying...it was frustrating...but I was reminded by God, in that moment, that even if adoption is not working out, that we prayed for HIS WILL to be done, and it WILL be done.
So, I finished the afternoon with ZERO accomplished in the adoption planning...and just gave it up to God. And then...what do you know...took a test and it was positive! God is amazing. Have I already said that?!?! :)
Without this journey...we would not know that we really desire to adopt. Just because we are having a child of our own, that desire is still deep within us. We still plan on adopting in the future -- and that is not something we would have known without the process of infertility.
So...right now...we are praying for a safe and healthy pregnancy and baby. I already find myself praying for the baby -- that God keeps him/her safe. And I really don't doubt that He will. The next blood test is on Monday -- and it will further confirm that my levels are rising, as they should.
But so far so good!!!!! :)
Thanks everyone for the prayers!!!!! I really, really mean it!
Friday, April 23, 2010
My life's prayer.
Psalm 143:7-10 (The Message translation)
7-10 "Hurry with your answer, God!
I'm nearly at the end of my rope.
Don't turn away; don't ignore me!
That would be certain death.
If you wake me each morning with the sound of your loving voice,
I'll go to sleep each night trusting in you.
Point out the road I must travel;
I'm all ears, all eyes before you.
Save me from my enemies, God—
you're my only hope!
Teach me how to live to please you,
because you're my God.
Lead me by your blessed Spirit
into cleared and level pastureland."
7-10 "Hurry with your answer, God!
I'm nearly at the end of my rope.
Don't turn away; don't ignore me!
That would be certain death.
If you wake me each morning with the sound of your loving voice,
I'll go to sleep each night trusting in you.
Point out the road I must travel;
I'm all ears, all eyes before you.
Save me from my enemies, God—
you're my only hope!
Teach me how to live to please you,
because you're my God.
Lead me by your blessed Spirit
into cleared and level pastureland."
Monday, April 19, 2010
IUI3 [the final one] & other notable events
First thing this morning, I want to just give God glory for His perfect timing, His perfect will, and His unending love for us! He and I frequently battled over the last 17 months, but in the process, He refined my heart. And I am so thankful for that! I needed it...badly.
Well, yesterday Nate and I woke up at 4am and drove to Jacksonville for our 7am appointment to do the last IUI (#3). On Friday evening, I gave myself the HCG shot and we insisted to our doctor that we wait at least 36 hours before we do the IUI. I felt like our doctor was timing it wrong and was missing my brief ovulation window; so, we become advocates for our own health and decided, as our last try, to do it OUR timing. This will leave no question marks or "what ifs" for the future. We tried clomid, we tried femara, we tried natural, we tried IUIs, we tried the doctor's timing (twice), and we tried our timing (once), so that left no stone unturned.
Because it was a Sunday morning, the on-call doctor performed the IUI. I found him to be very personable, and he made it a great experience; except, it was much more painful than the past IUIs. I don't know why that is...but I am still feeling a bit of discomfort from it. I'm not complaining, it just makes me curious as to why it never hurt in the past.
So all in all, I'm glad we stuck it out and finished this month strong. We will know the outcome in approximately 14 days...but either way, we are excited, because God is totally in control! And these days, I'm finding that completely exciting!! Whatever happens is His will...isn't that cool?
If the test is negative and this month is a failure (although not really a failure), then we will start the home study in May to begin the adoption process. This is also something that excites me. Even if we are pregnant, for our next try at parenthood, we would like to adopt. I believe God has laid this on both of our hearts for a very big reason. And I do not want to forget or ignore that calling.
In other news, Nate is starting his new job today! New jobs can be scary to walk into, so I am praying for peace for him today and that it is a smooth transition. I know he is excited and nervous all at the same time! We have big changes coming -- it is all very exciting!
Well, yesterday Nate and I woke up at 4am and drove to Jacksonville for our 7am appointment to do the last IUI (#3). On Friday evening, I gave myself the HCG shot and we insisted to our doctor that we wait at least 36 hours before we do the IUI. I felt like our doctor was timing it wrong and was missing my brief ovulation window; so, we become advocates for our own health and decided, as our last try, to do it OUR timing. This will leave no question marks or "what ifs" for the future. We tried clomid, we tried femara, we tried natural, we tried IUIs, we tried the doctor's timing (twice), and we tried our timing (once), so that left no stone unturned.
Because it was a Sunday morning, the on-call doctor performed the IUI. I found him to be very personable, and he made it a great experience; except, it was much more painful than the past IUIs. I don't know why that is...but I am still feeling a bit of discomfort from it. I'm not complaining, it just makes me curious as to why it never hurt in the past.
So all in all, I'm glad we stuck it out and finished this month strong. We will know the outcome in approximately 14 days...but either way, we are excited, because God is totally in control! And these days, I'm finding that completely exciting!! Whatever happens is His will...isn't that cool?
If the test is negative and this month is a failure (although not really a failure), then we will start the home study in May to begin the adoption process. This is also something that excites me. Even if we are pregnant, for our next try at parenthood, we would like to adopt. I believe God has laid this on both of our hearts for a very big reason. And I do not want to forget or ignore that calling.
In other news, Nate is starting his new job today! New jobs can be scary to walk into, so I am praying for peace for him today and that it is a smooth transition. I know he is excited and nervous all at the same time! We have big changes coming -- it is all very exciting!
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